Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Change of Plans

[image courtesy of Sue Spargo]

I am suppose to be at a day long Sue Spargo course in 6 hours.  Yep, it starts at 9:30 and it is 3:16 exactly right now.  This is some early morning blogging, isn't it?  

We have had coughs and colds and sore throats and the list goes on and on as does our collective illnesses.  It started with E on Friday (with a late night trip to the Children's Hospital thrown in).  Carried on with me starting on Saturday (no end date as of yet) and now is with our S who woke me up with his cough cough coughing.  He has finally fallen back asleep after about an hour straight of back rubs and forehead kisses.  

So it isn't looking promising for my Sue class tomorrow. And I worked really hard on getting everything ready for the class.  I mean, there was a lot of hand sewing done, my friends (something I didn't know how to do until last week-ish).

But I am not bothered in the least about missing out.

I am sure I will be able to take one of her courses in the future.

Because being a mama comes first (and I am not quite sure if in my sick, and now sleep deprived state, I would be any good at the course anyhow).  

Last week, Courtney over at C Jane wrote about how she broke her commitment to blog every day until Christmas because her little one was sick and needed her more than her blog did.  It was an amazing post about commitment and being a mother and what you go through when your child was sick.

I thought a lot about that post all day Friday, because it spoke to me  in light of leaving my big corporate job because in my heart I knew my children needed me at home more than my job needed me or I needed my job.  

I thought about that post Friday night as I stood in my driveway, uggs and pj's on, sobbing as I  watched Darrell drive with E to the hospital.  No one warns you when you have children that you will from that day forward wear your heart on the outside of your chest - with no rib cage or muscle to protect it, the heart is easily broken, especially when faced with the knowledge that your child is sick and that it is beyond you to heal them.  I am humbled by the strength of parents who deal with the chronic illness, or worse, of their child, on a daily basis.

And I am thankful for the doctors and nurses who worked hard to make my E well.  

So, there is a pretty big chance that it will be S and I snuggled up tomorrow watching ICarly all day (oh ICarly how I loathe your silly show).

But who knows .... Sue is teaching a course in Italy in the Spring ...

L xo

PS - If this post rambled, forgive me. It is almost 4 in the morning, after all.


Lady Docker said...

Sorry to hear you have not been well. I hope you and your family are feeling better soon.

scarves said...

Wish all of the network of friends have a new start .

hope you have a great 2011. Thanks for the link, sweetie!
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